lets be brief.

i love bullets. especially when i don't have anything legit to write about, just mental updates to keep track of my life.

1. friday night I slept over Nikks house, where we played the lets catch up game. Always lovely seeing that woman. We hit up a chill party at manny and johns place. Even though we didn't drink (okay so i had one PBR) it was fun. A lot of people from school showed up, its always nice to see everyone happily having a place to drink instead of cramming in a dorm room, getting shushed every five minutes, in between minus the bear songs haha.

2. saturday morning we went to look at an apartment in montclair. i think its adorable for us. I'm not sure how she feels about it because it was a tad run down. but it had that old charm, worn in feeling that i feel like montclair has. it was clean and well kept, so nothing crazzzy.

3. after work on saturday i went on some crazy adventure to pick up my boy, who was in the same town as work. I ended up getting oddly lost due to cell phones and alcohal messing up street signs. We ended up getting back to fort lee where we met up with his friends. One of his friends has a bar in his basement so we all relaxed there. We invested in some woodchuck beer which is pretty damn brilliant. Creations of shots were always up for grabs, so lets just say my taste testing got me a little silly. It was good to feel silly with everyone and laugh everything off.

4. Sunday we slept in and headed out to the city, tompkins square park (sp?) for a leftover crack show. wow, lets just say that was way interesting. the scene had such a great vibe to it, i just looked like a herb. Standing in a crowd of liberty spikes, forties, army pants, facial piercings, shaggy hair, total modern grunge rock, in my little vintage flat sandles, denim bermudas, a huge hippie inspired scarf and a fringed suede bag. Such a HERB. but the show was fun. People doing dope behind us, hopping fences, chanting FUCK THE POLICE, burning huge american flags and waving them around. Quite the experience. My boy, his friend, and I took it all in with a few Sparks which got me feeling a bit buzzed. We roamed the city until like, eleven at night. I can't even tell you what we were doing. We didn't even stop for dinner or anything, literally roamed around. Good fun, and the first sunday i've taken off since about febuary. When we finally arrived back in fort lee, we visited his friends again. We all hung out outside on the patio chatting it up. I think we left around two am. It was a well spent sunday.

5. Monday we slept in, but I had work at three. Monday was a terrible night to say the least. A lot of dramaaaaa going on between friends, family, and work. None of its connected but to have all three being shitty at the same time is out of control. If work sucks, you'd want to see your friends. If your friends suck, you'd want to see your family. If your family sucks, you'd want to get to work. But I have no grace period or mercy spot. Everything has been so strange. The high light of monday, at least evening/night was dinner with Alex and Jayro on break.

6. Today wasn't much better. I've been in a really pensive mood. I've been letting multiple things get to me personally that I have no control over. And as much as i'd like to create some sort of intervention, there is no way that I can. So i let it nibble at my brain all day. And of course, being me means not having it in me to talk about it. So, I don't. Thankfully Nikki came to my rescue today. And Lindsey gets honorable mention.

7. Tomorrow I'm waking up really early to head to the beach with a handful of my montague friends. This summer has been strange because I barely see anyone. I'm so fortunate that they have reached out to me. I feel like little-none of my friends make any effort to actually try and hang out. I have invited everyone I consider friends (with the exception of like, two people) to hang out, lets get lunch tomorrow, come to the beach on friday!, I miss you lets hang out when you have off this week, hey a group of us are going to the diner, my friend is having a party i want you to come with me! And its weird when you don't get that other half of the friendship reached out to you. Not to mention this past week I seriously got raped in the ass by like threee different friends over things that were blown out of proportions. I can think of a handfull of people who are lame this summer. If you are worried its you, it most likely is. But thanks to everyone who has made an effort, it has not gone unnoticed. and for that, I am thankful. You know who you are! I still love everyone though, regardless if you have been lame about loving me back ;)

8. Okay, so the beach. Rented a cheeeesy motel room! Like ten of us going to spend the day at the beach and to get sloppy. Knowing me I'll have like two beers and play mom. Ever since the first semester came and went, I have been unable to get shit faced... with a fewww exceptions. But knowing that none of us have to drive, we have a warm place to sleep, and that i'm in good company who has been there for me before, I'll get a tad silly. Regardless, all i want is that beautiful sunshine, tan lines, and that salty ocean. ipod on neutral milk hotel!

9. Technically be backkk thursday but since my mom will be away on business I will most likely not try to be home. I'll crash at manny and johns, and get to work on friday. My boy has off friday so i'll spend the night in fort lee and hit up work saturday. Its going to be a long week.

10. I feel like such a nomad. and i do this to myself. but im not complaining, because if i couldn't rely on good friends and loved ones, i'd be miserable at home.